STOP SETTLING IN 2010

This will be my last post in 2009. Thank you so much for allowing me to explore my writing with all of you this year. In 2010, I'll be writing my first book, so I'll be posting more poetry on my blog. If any of you have any topics you'd like me to address in my book, please don't hesitate to contribute your ideas. For now I will leave you with the following thoughts to take you into the New Year....


During this time, as we ring in the New Year, many of us begin to make changes or “resolutions” to help us get closer to this envisioned ideal of your Ultimate Self. You can see yourself so vividly; where you want to be, what you will have achieved, who is standing next to you sharing these experiences, and so on. Some of us make lists of goals and changes we will implement, to achieve this ideal. Very often, we start the New Year like a steam engine, racing towards these goals, but along the way something happens, and many of these goals take the back burner. The question is: What happens? You begin to wonder: “What’s wrong with me? Am I lazy? Do I just not believe in myself? Maybe I just don’t have what it takes, because this track can seem pretty scary at times.”

I want you to think for a second of what you want, not what is “safe” or “more feasible”, but what you really want… I mean really go deep inside and ask yourself, “What have I dreamed of for so long?” Do you see your career taking off? Finally finding that One person you can build with that understands and accepts you? Maybe you see yourself finding happiness?, Finally accepting yourself as you are? , Learning to do what YOU want and not what other people want? Whatever you are feeling right now, OWN THOSE DESIRES, CLAIM THEM AS YOURS. This is your True Self speaking to you, saying “Hey YOU, this is what YOU want. Stop ignoring what you already know”.

Once you can see what you want, think of how LONG you have wanted these things to manifest. How long have you been putting these off to the side? What are you using to Distract you from getting to where you want to be? How have you been occupying your time, instead of moving towards what you really want? When you do this, you will find something that many people may find hard to accept and that is: THE ONLY PERSON THAT CAN STOP YOU FROM GETTING TO WHERE YOU WANT TO BE IS YOU.

So how does this happen? This happens when you SETTLE. You settle when you get comfortable in a particular situation that feels “safe”. You get that job that pays the bills, so you stop being as hungry to achieve your dreams. You find a partner that gives you a little bit of what you want, so you give up what you really want in a partner, just because of the security you feel knowing someone is there. STOP TRYING TO FIT A SQUARE INTO A CIRCLE. If a person or situation is not what you DESERVE, then so be it. Stop trying to convince yourself otherwise. Stop making excuses for yourself and others. STAY TRUE TO YOURSELF. DON’T SETTLE. DON’T ALTER YOUR STANDARDS, because the only person you are hurting is yourself. DEEP INSIDE, YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DESERVE.

When you Settle, you carry an uneasy feeling inside of you. It’s with you when you wake up everyday and when you try to fall asleep everynight. Your Awareness feels that something isn’t right. Something is missing, but you just can’t pinpoint what it is. Honestly, this is what it feels like when you aren’t being TRUE TO YOURSELF. When you don’t KEEP IT REAL WITH YOURSELF, you start to not like yourself very much. You don’t like to be alone with yourself and your thoughts, so you start to create ways to avoid facing the TRUTH. This is where addictions come in: drugs, alcohol, shopping, eating, gambling, random sex, etc. All these things done in EXCESS, rather than MODERATION, are ways people try to run away from the reality they have created and before long they feel the same way they did before: Empty, Lost, and Confused.

I don’t share this with you so you feel bad about yourself. I don’t want you to beat yourself up. I write this so that you can STEP OUTSIDE OF YOURSELF FOR A MOMENT. Imagine that you are up on a mountain, looking down and observing yourself. Just watch yourself. What are you doing? IS THIS REALLY WHO YOU ARE? You know yourself, more than what you think you do…

This New Year’s, resolve to STOP SETTLING.

I have so many close friends that quit their high –salary corporate jobs, because they had a burning desire for creative freedom that was just too strong. I have friends who have ended friendships/relationships because they knew it wasn’t what was best for them. I have friends who’ve stayed single for so long, because they believe that God will bring them someone perfect for them when the time is right. What are you ACHING FOR? FACE YOUR BURNING DESIRES.

This New Year’s, affirm to STOP RUNNING AWAY FROM YOURSELF.

STOP OVERLOOKING THINGS WHICH ARE INDEED IMPORTANT TO YOU.

TAKE CHANCES, TAKE RISKS, THINK OUTSIDE THE BOX.

2010 IS A TIME TO CLAIM WHAT IS ALREADY YOURS, TO KNOW NOTHING IS MISSING.

YOU WERE BORN WITH ALL THE TOOLS TO MANIFEST YOUR GREATEST DESIRES.

IT'S TIME TO BRAVELY STEP INTO YOUR TRUE SELF...

IN LOVE & TRUTH,

MARISOL

They Say

I just wrote this piece in the last couple hours... Its a Spoken Word piece and I may revise it later, but its fresh with energy, so I wanted to just send it out to you guys... Enjoy... Bless... Marisol


They Say

They say I shouldn’t Love so much,
Shouldn’t reveal so much,
Should hold my tongue for just once,
Make them wonder and such

They Say ,“Honey, It’s a cold world out there and you shouldn’t Trust so much”
“Not everyone’s sweet like you, so don’t you Smile so much”
“You’re born alone and die alone, so don’t you stress him so much”

And me, with my rose-colored glasses even when the suns no longer shining,
Continue to wear my heart on my sleeve, even when its grown too cold to walk these streets without our jackets and our masks.

Show my face and speak with grace.
Remain steadfast in the knowing that my Brave Heart can rest safe among these
weary travelers when all the world’s their stage.
Actors made from fiction, words perfected with their diction
Reciting previously rehearsed lines such as:
“I’ve never felt like this”
such as:
“Its like I’ve known you forever” and such as,
“Maybe you and I could get together sometime”

And upon morning’s arrival and words denial,
I contemplate their "advice" when they told me,

“Maybe you shouldn’t Love so quick,
Make them read between the lines a bit.
You know, it always works when you act like a bitch,
I mean, look at what Jessica did and now she’s hitched”

Am I the only One who believes in Keepin it Real these days?
The only one who sees its not a one way street and you gotta travel both ways?
Should I have to pay the price because your mother never showed you enough affection?
Told you, you were nothing less than perfection
Taught you women weren’t toys for your collection
Should I have to work extra hard to attain some love, respect, and honesty?
Should I have to stay awake at home til 4 am just so you can lie next to me?

Questions posed by women when they look for Love in the wrong direction,
Searchin outside, rather than within, when Love’s all they’ve ever been.
Dealin with the wanna-be rock stars,
Amateur ballers, C. E. NOs in their rented sports cars
with their egos ablaze, shining light on their good ol’ days
of pick-up lines, and one-night-stands, and easy girls who’ll do just about anything to say “I’m with The Band”.

It’s sad to see men becoming blind when they see a Real Woman before them,
Too scared to handle a Goddess, so they ignore them.
And I take it all in stride, because I know who I am inside,
The Queen with a Spirit Greater than any lie you tell,
any hopeless expectations you fail,
Because what is Pure and Real will always prevail.

and So I ask you...
Would it hurt for you to care so much?
Think before you speak for once.
Know your words carry life, so take them more seriously for once.
Step out of your bubble and take a look at what’s inside for once.

And then maybe you’ll recognize…
This IS a woman who Loves that Much,
Who Deserves So Much,
Who is More Than Enough.

So next time when you see Her in Her Radiance, Love, and Light,
Do yourself a favor and Treat Her as Such.

BY CHANCE

I was planning to write about myself on my birthday, but my imagination started going and I visualized this scenario. This is about a man and a woman with an intense attraction, who’ve unexpectedly met for the first time. They can have only one evening together, and may never see each other again after this encounter. This is what’s playing in his mind….


She’s full, hungry for more
Impulsive Satisfaction
Intensity in Action
Curious Attraction
Deep Conversation
Mental Penetration
Asking in Sublimation
Alive in Imagination

She’s unknown encounter, familiar when around her
Raw intensity, Uncensored expression
Touch relieving tension, unclear intention
She’s magnetic glance, intimate dance
Eyes that invite, invade, persuade
Could be secret lover, guardian angel undercover,
She’s untouched bliss, sacred reminisce_
scent of a woman, a lover, a child
She inhales deeply, taking all of you in
She’s tainted, pure, experienced, virgin within
She’s loud voice, soft mouth
She bites lips
Speaks without words
Reveals with a kiss.

She’s predator, she’s prey, lures either way
She plays dead, hidden from vision
Disguised Intuition.

She’s Huntress
Temptress
Goddess

She’s Thief-in-the-Night,
Pure Blinding Light
She’s Woman of your Dreams,
What if Nothing’s How it Seems?
She’s Hesitant Surrender,
Unexplored Pleasure
Restrained Endeavor
Unclaimed Treasure

She was radiant, transient,
left her footsteps on the tracks of your mind
She heard unclear lines, disguised as declines
read in between the lines
She’s now your deep thought
Silent Obsession
Lust’s Repression
Late Night's Question

She’s Lingering Voice, Difficult Choice
She’s Intriguing Smile, Left in Denial
Words Unsaid
Replay in your head

Slow process, fast undress
She’s your no, your yes
She knows.
So she goes.
She knows.

Midnight Exchange

I have a special affection for the Moon. I somehow relate to Her and this piece was written to explore this connection. In honor of the Full Moon tonight, I wrote this for Her... and for my Stars.



In their midnight exchange, the Moon and the Stars conversed, sharing stories of legendary dreams and immortal love.

Some dared explore Her aura, staring into Her intriguing Star-struck eyes, attempting to decipher the intentions behind Her blazing luminescence.

As She grew wiser, She gained confidence in Her own force, witnessing Her ability to pull the tides when She boldly face the world.

She revealed Her Truth in doses, reflecting the Star’s own radiance through Her brief lasting impressions.
On cyclical occasions She would bare Herself fully, sensing the Stars anticipation for the nights when She would make herself available to quench their curious thirst.

Although She danced through the Universe in solitude, twirling through Her private dimensions, She never turned Her face away from Her steadfast companions.

Some Stars stayed near, witnessing the powerful Light emitted when they tip toed through Her atmosphere.
Others met Her darker side, as She shunned away those whose motives where revealed as She stared through them deeply, exposing their core.

Those Stars which collided with Her in Her youth, had left their lasting impressions on Her previously untouched surface.
These comets and meteors’ impacts had given Her wisdom and character, making Her more beautiful to those Stars who later delved into Her depths.

She intuitively selected the brightest Stars to form their constellations, carefully aligned so as to tell their stories through verse.
As the Moon and the Stars made love in the dark, they carved their destiny in the night sky,
guiding those who believed in the power of their creations.

Although they shone side by side, She remained knowing She would stand alone, lifetimes repeating a past already written by Her gleaming witnesses.

Guiding Her Lover with no name, She wrote bravely, transmitting Her messages into the Twilight of Night.
And there She remained, spinning in the darkness, until the Sun would come along and lay Her spirit to rest.

Being OK with What IS

Being OK with What IS

Have you ever noticed how quickly and easy it is to change your mood? The reason this occurs is because every single time anything occurs, we automatically give it a label. We think “Great! This is Awesome!” or maybe “No Way! This sucks!”. Once our minds decide if something is good or bad, we automatically generate an emotional response, we become happy, scared, angry, sad, excited, disappointed, etc. These emotions can sometimes be very powerful, altering our entire mood and composure. Sooner or later, before we know it, we find that we aren’t even in control, and our basically handing over our power to other people.

The irony of this is that we ourselves are the only ones that truly have the power to affect our mood and personal state. Think about it, wouldn’t you always like to be in a peaceful state, with a just “go-with-the-flow” attitude? Most of us, would probably enjoy our time here on earth much better if we learned to accept everything that occurs, rather than resisting or fighting reality.

Now what I’m going to explain to you may take some time to truly get used to, but after a while if you learn to think in this manner, you can avoid a lot of inner drama. The most important thing to understand is that our PERCEPTION of things is what affects our emotions. The next time you’re somewhere and you feel, see, or hear something that doesn’t sit well with you, step out of your mind and ask yourself: “Why do I feel this way?”. I promise you that 100% of the time it will be because you labeled this situation as “negative or bad”. When this happens, you can instantly stop the uneasy feeling, by DROPPING THE LABEL. Who said what happened was bad? There is always a reason why everything occurs and with patience, we always find the answers and reasons are revealed to us. Don’t be so quick to give everything a label. EVERYTHING JUST “IS”, and more importantly, IT’S NOT PERSONAL. The only reason you would perceive something as bad is because its not what you want or offends your ego.

When you can learn to accept things as they occur and expect nothing from every situation, you can eliminate your emotional reactions and begin to truly appreciate everything and everyone JUST AS THEY ARE. When you practice this NON-EXPECTATION AND NON-JUDGEENT, you will begin to slowly witness a shift in yourself towards a state of GRATITUDE. When you are in this place, you can not help but feel LOVE and COMPASSION for everyone, because NOTHING IS PERSONAL...And remember, when you accept what IS, you’re not losing anything, rather making yourself more open and available for what is TRULY MEANT FOR YOU.

IMAGINE THE FREEDOM IF LIFE JUST WAS…
HOW WOULD YOU FEEL EVERYDAY WHEN YOU WAKE UP?
HOW WOULD YOU TREAT OTHERS?
WHAT COULD YOU ACHIEVE?

INFINITE POSSIBILITIES….. PEACE....FREEDOM

Bless,
Marisol

REFLECTION OF GRATITUDE

Every single day, I am blessed with further understanding. I am grateful for the wisdom I gain everyday. We already know so much... its all inside of us, waiting to be recognized. Amazingly enough, we make the greatest strides through the exploration of human interactions which occur with reflections of ourselves. I wrote this in honor of that.

REFLECTION OF GRATITUDE

Speak to me,
Find haven in my Light, illuminating the reflection of Self.
Let us build ourselves, remembering long forgotten wisdom,
while we dive into the pages of each others stories,
written long before the manifestation of physical birth.

Our time here has singular purpose,
a gently weaving presence I gladly welcome.
Supreme understanding,
born only when concepts and attachments are released.

Let us not compare yesterday to tomorrow,
for the past does not exist in infinite time and space.
Rather imagine the never ending depths,
as we journey further than few will dare to explore.
And if we reflect on history’s purity,
let us rest in the knowing that yesterday occurred to build a more powerful union, one free of altered perceptions.

There is no road, no map, no destination,
No definite path to our ultimate selves.
Uncharted seas and fresh terrains are all that we navigate,
Each others patterns discovered anew provide clarity and acceptance.

I lay my head to rest and my soul feels not alone,
having conversed with its counterpart,
finding renewed strength in the exchange.

I thank God for not wanting,
Finding fulfillment when souls play.
The rawest of exchanges ever-present,
human minds realizing only a small fraction of what occurs.

And If a desire arises, let it be One of Truth,
Gods infinite wisdom multiplying within,
only to be divided unto nations in darkness.

- MARISOL TAMEZ

WHAT DO YOU WANT?!

About 9 months ago, I remember sitting in Satsang at my dear friend Ash’s home and having him ask us what we wanted to manifest for the New Year. One could call this our New Year’s Intention. I thought for a while of all the things I desired at that time: love from a partner, financial freedom, true independence, etc. As I thought of all those things, I remember how uncomfortable it felt to create a place of “need” or “inadequacy” for myself. I felt like I was creating more and more stress and after awhile, I thought in my head, “I want to not want”. For a moment, I debated whether I would even say that aloud, but it was truly what I wanted most: to simply not want. I stated the intention into the Universe and Let it Be.

Last night during a conversation with a close friend, I finally realized that I was so much closer than I even realized and that it took all of the events that occurred this year to help me see that I indeed do not need absolutely anything.

Now don’t get the wrong idea, this does not mean that I walk around aimlessly without any goals or purpose. I am passionate about many things: writing, creativity, music, expression, people, etc, however I know that none of these things define me. No material accomplishment or possession will ever define my self-worth or talent. I can remove all of these “wants” and I am still left with my raw essence of Love and simply Being.

So I would like to ask you:

Why place stress upon yourself yearning for something you do not have? Why waste energy attempting to recreate a past moment or force a future? Why create negative feelings trying to make a person see or feel something the way you do?
In all honesty, all of these “wants” are hopeless, because ultimately what IS, just IS, and no wanting, worrying, or yearning will change reality.

I have found that “not wanting anything” is a direct path to true freedom. “Not wanting” does not equate to laziness or apathy, rather “not wanting” is simply FAITH.

Instead of being in a negative state, Why not simply state your Intentions and ALLOW? Be OPEN to the Infinite Possibilities than can occur at any moment if you are Available and Willing. Have Faith that what is in your path, will be in your path when the timing is correct.

By all means, feel free to execute the necessary steps to achieve your goals in your career, spiritual life, family/love life, etc, but do them from a place of KNOWING. Knowing what is Yours, is Already Yours. What is yours is always revealed to you and when this happens everything makes complete sense. Remember that wherever you are at this very moment is exactly where you need to be. Everything that surrounds you, what you are doing, who is in your life, all of these things have been perfectly placed here for this moment, And this moment will last however long it must, until a new moment comes to help you move along your personal path.

So I urge you to enjoy every single moment, the ones that bring you pain, pleasure, sadness, and happiness. Appreciate everything and everyone you have right now. Do not waste your time wanting a past and a future so much, that you fail to see the beauty of this moment. If you open your eyes, the eyes of the spirit, you will see that everything you have ever wanted is already Here... in this Moment.

Bless,
Marisol

~~~~~~

“When I was a child, I saw what I wanted and begged for it more. When I grew older, I saw what I wanted and worked harder to get it. Then I grew wiser, and saw what I wanted was indeed nothing at all.” - Marisol Tamez

“Look with your Eyes and you see Nothing, Look with your Soul and you See The World.” - Marisol Tamez

From Up Here

Hey there Beautiful People,

So tonight I saw Pink’s Amazing Trapeze Performance of her track “Sober” on the MTV VMA’S and was so inspired that I wrote this piece to complement it. You can watch the 4 minute act on the link below and you’ll get a much better feel for my piece. Bless, Marisol

http://www.mtv.com/videos/misc/435685/sober-live.jhtml#id=1620606"

From Up Here

Walking barefoot on a one way track to nowhere
This time I won’t look back, or wander side to side
Took the beaten path a few times one too many
Got a new road and I don’t care to hitch a ride

And Up here its much easier to breathe
Up here there’s no one else I really even need
From way up here their voices have no meaning
Cause from up here there’s so much I really see

They said, eyes closed, just hold on tightly
but with nothing grasped I feel like I can fly
They said, three times, the world belongs to you
but the more I claimed, the more I slowly died

Those games will not suffice another season
next time I hear those words, I’ll listen to my advice
And I don’t care to hear mellow-dramatic reasons,
next time I give me up, I think I’ll just think twice

He said, hold on, your almost done here
and all the while I thought I’d only just begun
He said, three times, you’re gonna make it,
and now I see that I’m the only One

Sky high, you’ll never touch me
Up Here, can’t even see the madness in their eyes
So High, can’t even feel you
Think I’ll stay here for another thousand lives

They said, Hold on, you’re gonna make it,
and now I see that I’m the only One
They said, three times, the world Belongs to you
and now I see that I’m the only One

BEING OPEN HEARTED

Instead of my Usual Poetry, today I have some thoughts I would like to share. This is also great practice for my books which I will writing very soon. ;) Again, I want to thank ALL of YOU, For it is through my Moments with You that I Come to Realize my Innate Everflowing Wisdom….
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I often have people ask me how to remain so open despite being hurt, as we all have been subject to pain through human interaction and personal relationships. So today, I have a few thoughts that I'd like to share...

I believe that we all are innately Loving Beings. One of the most basic and primitive human desires is the need for love and physical affection. We are born like this. Observe any young child and you will notice their natural way of being is one of Love, affection, and joy. So one might ask, What occurs that changes this?

As we grow, we begin to explore human interaction, in school, on a playground, with friends, as we begin dating, and so on. Initially, we act based on our true childlike nature__ that of Love. However, this Love is not always met equally by others. Sometimes its met with ego, jealousy, insecurity, fear, impulse and other feelings people possess that prevent them from acting from Pure Love. Gradually, we begin to fear that being open hearted can also be a painful process. So we alter our responses during human interaction and relationships to match those that we are being met with. We begin to lose trust, close our hearts, and mask our childlike nature.

The MOST IMPORTANT THING I WANT YOU TO UNDERSTAND is the hurt only occurs when we take other’s actions and words personally. Remember, anything that anyone has ever said or done to you HAS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU, AND EVERYTHING TO DO WITH THEM AND WHERE THEY ARE AT IN THEIR STATE OF MIND.
Their actions and words or lack thereof are not a reflection of your self-worth, EVER.

When you can truly grasp and believe this Truth, it becomes instantly easier to open your heart because you begin to understand that no one else has the power to hurt you. Only YOU can hurt you. You hurt yourself by the way you perceive each situation.

I know many of you may still feel that being open is a scary place to be. Many of you may feel vulnerable at the thought of exposing yourself, expressing your feelings, and so on. Others may feel it is naive to be so trusting in a world where so many others have been conditioned to act the opposite. These reactions are perfectly understandable. Luckily, we have all been given a very special gift that goes along perfectly with our open heart___ INTUITION.

Our Intuition is our “gut feeling”, it does not come from the mind, rather an innate knowing that we have about every person and situation in our lives. It tells us whether we feel “safe” around them or should “be careful”. Our intuition is most powerful when we are AWARE. You are aware when you LISTEN to yourself, the inner voice we all possess. This voice speaks to us through our bodies. When you are unsure about someone or something, you can close your eyes, bring your attention to the issue at hand, and listen to your body. If it tingles, feels excited, or alive, that is a sign that you are exactly where you need to be. But if your body tenses up, feels uneasy or nervous in your stomach, then that is your higher self warning you to be extra aware of the situation.

Ultimately, our Intuition and our Open Hearts combined, can allow us to live more Joyfully, to fully Explore and Experience every Moment without Fear. It allows us to take chances, express our feelings, and be open to the Infinite Possibilities that each day has to offer. Remember, You are the Creator of Your Life. Being Open Hearted allows You to LIVE FULLY and Savor All of Life’s Beauty in it Many Forms.

Love is Life and Life is Free.

Namaste.

Marisol


OSHO -

"The heart is like a flower - unless it is open it cannot release its fragrance into the world. The fragrance of the heart is made up of the qualities and virtues of our spirit. Most of us have learned how to keep our heart closed in a world that would trample all over us if we let it. Being open hearted today seems to require tremendous courage. It is a courage which comes only when we realise that no one can hurt us, no matter what they say or do. They may hurt our body, but if we have realised we are spirit, nothing outside can touch us, if we so decide. Little by little, practice opening your heart to those you think have hurt you. Realise it wasnt them that hurt you, it was yourself. And it taught you not to trust and you closed your heart. A closed heart is in need of opening. And when you do, you will have begun to heal yourself. "

REFLECTION

Stripping herself of the distinction between Right and Wrong,
She stared at her Bare Body in the Mirror before Her.
Candlelight illuminated Her Face.
There were no scars, no bruises and for that Moment she thought herself Immortal.

There was something different about that Night.
The Seeds of Curiosity and Intrigue had been Planted,
Allowing her to Cultivate Life thru their Direct Experience.
Some Flowers would Bloom, others would Die
and Both brought her Pain and Pleasure.

She knew better than to ignore Intuition,
But she had danced with the Devil and made Love in the Dark.

By the time Light peered its head thru the upstairs window,
Her cards were Laying on the Table, No Aces left up Her Sleeve.

She knew their Exchange was only Temporary,
So she Breathed Him in Deep,
creating a Reserve for use upon His Departure.

She Stared Intensely at Her Reflection,
Neither blinking, Raw Unspoken Truth.
Words need not be said, when a Gaze explains what one Innately Senses.
But her Intoxication gave Her Courage
And for that Moment, There was Nothing she Feared.

She was Looking at Freedom,
Having Long been Present Within Her Being,
Yet Somehow having Rested Its Head For Longer than Intended.
This Beauty that attracted her, would be the same that would push her away.
And this she Knew.

The Interplay of Light and Dark bouncing off the Glass Fascinated Her,
Piercing her Heart and Stinging her Soul in Sweet Surrender.
She Reached out, wanting to Grasp the Silver Glimmer that was Birthed from their Merging,
But she quickly Realized it was Not to be Clenched,
as she Witnessed Blood Slowly Seeping from her Fingers.

Her Focus Slowly Rose from her Red Hand,
Meeting His Eyes Once More.
And She Smiled.
Eyes of Love Saying “Thank You”
For that was All She had to Give.

Love & Truth

I'd like to share with all of you the tattoo I got today. This was symbolic of much of the growth and realizations I’ve experienced this past year. The poem below also explains an aspect of its representation for me. The artist who did it, Junk Roxxx, had a very gentle touch and I told him the needle felt so good, like "an angel nibbling me". He said that I was “the most animated person he had ever met”, which was a such a sweet compliment and funny considering everyone says I am like a fairy. ;)
The process was quick, about 15 minutes, and I listened to "Submerge: Til We Become the Sun" and "Pretty Wings" by Maxwell. It was a beautiful experience. Sitting in lotus my heart was very happy and my eyes teared up in gratitude. I am so thankful for those I've been blessed to encounter on my journey this lifetime and have been influential in the process.
Ok, ok ... Now that I set the scene, here's the poem..... ;)


I walk 3 steps forward.
You take 2 and 1 back.
After awhile I'm walking ahead and can't really turn back.
For if I grab your hand and pull you along,
you'll never be able to sing your own songs.
And although I'd love to continue and walk by your side,
Distinct intentions create separate paths that neither can deny.
So one of our gifts we will gently lay to rest,
To preserve the core essence of what we have left.
An essence so pure, preserved in spiritual planes.
Physical manifestation hindered by emotional aims.
I don't want you to change
If freedom is what you claim.
No more need to explain
No need to be ashamed.
And although feelings make me unable to remain
These moments may be few or extended longer the same.
For in my heart, our connection is still maintained.
What we've built is so strong, no words suffice as name.
I still Love you the same.
We are One... still the same.
So I'll proceed on my path and bow my head to you,
Honoring our bond still intact, only present in rare few.
Though the opposite direction I bravely do choose,
I'll never refute this Love and Undeniable Truth.
And for that reason,
Imprinted on me,
The symbol of all we came to be.
And always were and always will.
We are Love and Truth
United Still.

Let Me

Hello Beautiful Souls,

If you are receiving this, it is because you are one of the special people with whom I would like to share my poetry with. I just wrote this piece in the last hour, so it is fresh with my energy right now. As you may know, its a full moon tonight which brings out the rawness in me and of course the Love which oozes out of me and all my writings ;) Thank you for sharing my heart and being a source of inspiration.
Love, Mar Y Sol


Let me Write

Let me write for those who make music and rhymes
and carry passion in their eyes.
For those whose lips can express their heart
and send messages miles apart.

Let me Write

my name across your heart
your soul, let you lose control
let pleasures unfold
let your heart I mold
experience moments untold.
Witness what’s possible
when your bed’s no longer cold.

Let me Write

and teach you how to feel
to believe in the unreal
to allow you to breath deeply
when my feelings I reveal.

Let me Express

because we all just want some love and affection.
Time together, giving you my sole attention
and need I mention
how we’ll relax and unwind
with legs intertwined,
searching deeper for treasures
that few dare to find.

Let me Bare

Bare my body, anticipating the first time we’ll undress
Bare my heart, instant comfort makes it feel safe to express
Bare my mind, for intentions have no life if suppressed
Bare my soul, if you will listen to desires I confess.

Let me Love

Nothing less than what I always dreamed
Nothing more than it always seemed.
Finding in the final scenes,
Eternal lovers are few and far between.

Let me Love

because I’ve been set free
allowing me to clearly see
what I’ve wanted all along for me.
Now this is the only Truth set free,
that possibilities are real and infinitely me.

Dance with a Poet

As he writes his spirit glides across the paper leaving his imprint on her heart and mind
He speaks from a place she has not visited yet familiar nonetheless
His words dance with her, eliminating the need for a formal introduction
Ordinary questions unnecessary for his essence touched her being centuries ago.

She sits in her stillness unsure as to how or why.
Her ability to feel sometimes frightening her still.
Witnessing pain exploding through pixels and speakers, too intense to be contained.
So she reaches out.
Taking her curiosity and intrigue by the reigns
Aware of her ability to ease the pain
She wants to Love his hurt away, that sneaks from his eyes behind smiles
and finds its home at his side when all are asleep.
She wants Him to know,
There are others like Him. He is not alone.
God embodies many, few ready to give Him voice.
Not willing to accept their Godliness and sit upon their throne.

He carries Him inside, words writing themselves manifested from places never seen, rather felt by these often hidden Chosen Few.
Spirit enters, Heart pumping, pushing blood through veins, into hands which profess Undeniable Truth.
Living proof the body is only what we see.
You are Alive my friend. You are Alive.

Breathing deeply, God enters her, this mission to Love overwhelming for a soul trapped in a limited body, bound by time and space.
She sends her spirit to kiss his face in his sleep, caress his forehead, and somehow ease the weight carried by the Ones still left standing.

It is the Angels with callings others are unable to comprehend.
Embarking on a path, often chosen not, rather suddenly given to them.
She sees and feels him deeply, willingly be his friend and muse.
And so she gives her heart permission to share this sweet juice.
Nectar of Life
Ever-nourishing
More than enough Proof.

His Name

* This one just came out today. It flowed so effortlessly, it almost wrote itself.

His Name

From the first day I picked up my pen, 

He was the source of my inspiration for these words

Words that could not express that feeling, 

That feeling you feel when it doesn’t seem real 

When one day you’re in ecstasy and the next day He messes with me
with those words, or lack thereof.
And I try, I try so hard to stay out of my mind
and see Him with eyes clear from fear, or uncertainty, or doubt, 

And sustain a young woman whole and complete
whether She feels His affection or stays without.
For the night, and another, and another

Declining other invites because Her soul knows what’s real,

From the first instant She could feel

and gave Him His Name in Her book of Few.
So Few had ever touched Her the way that He had,

Looking with eyes not of scared of Her Light,

But fearful of His own Name so they remain the Same,

With one hand in Her pocket, and the other extended in vain.

Sometimes He would show His face
and it looked so familiar when He almost arrived 

So close I could see the way his shoulders relaxed
when He stopped trying so hard.
Just Stop, For one second and see what’s in front of you
before you keep walking,
before I start walking. 

Away.

Another day His face would change, emotions would fade
and I would give Him another Name.
But again, it was still the Same.
And I never cared how many books would tell me
Men Love Bitches or He’s Just not That into You

I just always kept it real, expressing my heart with all pride aside,
I shared what was always inside, 

Because I knew in the depths of my Soul
He loved me just as much 

So much that it scared Him, and Him, and Him too
And sometimes he’d just watch my tears or listen to my fears,
like a statue so cold and unmoved.
Oh how he hid his emotion so well, I wondered where it went.
But I saw it all and I watched as well, as he played his role so well.
Because, You know...
it’s just so much easier when you don’t respond when they call you,

By Your Name….. 

Sometimes I feel like He forgets my Name,
but when I look in his eyes, its still the Same
Won’t He Feed me some consistency?
SHOW me that you hear me, SHOW me that you’re Here with Me
and that the man I see has the same identity that I knew from Day One
SHOW me and TELL me that your still someone
Someone I know so well.

Should I remind Him of His name?
Or should I just walk away?
Yes, maybe I’ll just walk away today and know I still remain
and that I didn’t forget my Name.
Because at the end of the day, We’re one in the same.
And Baby I don’t Need You at all.
Cause you’ll still be here, whether I ever see you again at all.
Cause I had you even before you uttered my Name at all
Cause I had you inside of me before you knew what even hit you at all.
I had you inside of me. I had you inside of me.
Because your Name is LOVE. Your Name is LOVE
And for Now, I’m still right Here, and you have nothing to be fearful of.

In My Quiet Solitude...

(*It had been awhile since I took the time to listen to her express herself... so here we go...)

In my quiet solitude, I bask in the infinite greatness that is I.

Thru the sun ray's energy, he pierces my skin,
finding a place in my heart and I invite him Home.

It's the Sweetest Submission,
even when I'm alone.
For I know he's been Here,
because the pages are worn.

Traveling thru unfamiliar territories, Navigated by few before,
The Unknown finds his place by my side,
be it for one day, one year, one lifetime or more.

And while still in my wholeness, I observe myself in him, and him in I.
His words become mine, his essence inside,
from his skin against mine, to the Love in his eyes.

It is through this Love that we always progress,
As we share, accept, and simply reflect.
With new realizations, perceived limitations transgressed,
'Til we speak from our souls, now Free to express.

Gazing at the stars, who've written all these lines,
Savoring the moments in this life so perfectly planned.
Now I'll humbly remind, Should we meet again another time,
may I again have the pleasure of simply holding his hand.