From Up Here

Hey there Beautiful People,

So tonight I saw Pink’s Amazing Trapeze Performance of her track “Sober” on the MTV VMA’S and was so inspired that I wrote this piece to complement it. You can watch the 4 minute act on the link below and you’ll get a much better feel for my piece. Bless, Marisol

http://www.mtv.com/videos/misc/435685/sober-live.jhtml#id=1620606"

From Up Here

Walking barefoot on a one way track to nowhere
This time I won’t look back, or wander side to side
Took the beaten path a few times one too many
Got a new road and I don’t care to hitch a ride

And Up here its much easier to breathe
Up here there’s no one else I really even need
From way up here their voices have no meaning
Cause from up here there’s so much I really see

They said, eyes closed, just hold on tightly
but with nothing grasped I feel like I can fly
They said, three times, the world belongs to you
but the more I claimed, the more I slowly died

Those games will not suffice another season
next time I hear those words, I’ll listen to my advice
And I don’t care to hear mellow-dramatic reasons,
next time I give me up, I think I’ll just think twice

He said, hold on, your almost done here
and all the while I thought I’d only just begun
He said, three times, you’re gonna make it,
and now I see that I’m the only One

Sky high, you’ll never touch me
Up Here, can’t even see the madness in their eyes
So High, can’t even feel you
Think I’ll stay here for another thousand lives

They said, Hold on, you’re gonna make it,
and now I see that I’m the only One
They said, three times, the world Belongs to you
and now I see that I’m the only One

BEING OPEN HEARTED

Instead of my Usual Poetry, today I have some thoughts I would like to share. This is also great practice for my books which I will writing very soon. ;) Again, I want to thank ALL of YOU, For it is through my Moments with You that I Come to Realize my Innate Everflowing Wisdom….
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I often have people ask me how to remain so open despite being hurt, as we all have been subject to pain through human interaction and personal relationships. So today, I have a few thoughts that I'd like to share...

I believe that we all are innately Loving Beings. One of the most basic and primitive human desires is the need for love and physical affection. We are born like this. Observe any young child and you will notice their natural way of being is one of Love, affection, and joy. So one might ask, What occurs that changes this?

As we grow, we begin to explore human interaction, in school, on a playground, with friends, as we begin dating, and so on. Initially, we act based on our true childlike nature__ that of Love. However, this Love is not always met equally by others. Sometimes its met with ego, jealousy, insecurity, fear, impulse and other feelings people possess that prevent them from acting from Pure Love. Gradually, we begin to fear that being open hearted can also be a painful process. So we alter our responses during human interaction and relationships to match those that we are being met with. We begin to lose trust, close our hearts, and mask our childlike nature.

The MOST IMPORTANT THING I WANT YOU TO UNDERSTAND is the hurt only occurs when we take other’s actions and words personally. Remember, anything that anyone has ever said or done to you HAS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU, AND EVERYTHING TO DO WITH THEM AND WHERE THEY ARE AT IN THEIR STATE OF MIND.
Their actions and words or lack thereof are not a reflection of your self-worth, EVER.

When you can truly grasp and believe this Truth, it becomes instantly easier to open your heart because you begin to understand that no one else has the power to hurt you. Only YOU can hurt you. You hurt yourself by the way you perceive each situation.

I know many of you may still feel that being open is a scary place to be. Many of you may feel vulnerable at the thought of exposing yourself, expressing your feelings, and so on. Others may feel it is naive to be so trusting in a world where so many others have been conditioned to act the opposite. These reactions are perfectly understandable. Luckily, we have all been given a very special gift that goes along perfectly with our open heart___ INTUITION.

Our Intuition is our “gut feeling”, it does not come from the mind, rather an innate knowing that we have about every person and situation in our lives. It tells us whether we feel “safe” around them or should “be careful”. Our intuition is most powerful when we are AWARE. You are aware when you LISTEN to yourself, the inner voice we all possess. This voice speaks to us through our bodies. When you are unsure about someone or something, you can close your eyes, bring your attention to the issue at hand, and listen to your body. If it tingles, feels excited, or alive, that is a sign that you are exactly where you need to be. But if your body tenses up, feels uneasy or nervous in your stomach, then that is your higher self warning you to be extra aware of the situation.

Ultimately, our Intuition and our Open Hearts combined, can allow us to live more Joyfully, to fully Explore and Experience every Moment without Fear. It allows us to take chances, express our feelings, and be open to the Infinite Possibilities that each day has to offer. Remember, You are the Creator of Your Life. Being Open Hearted allows You to LIVE FULLY and Savor All of Life’s Beauty in it Many Forms.

Love is Life and Life is Free.

Namaste.

Marisol


OSHO -

"The heart is like a flower - unless it is open it cannot release its fragrance into the world. The fragrance of the heart is made up of the qualities and virtues of our spirit. Most of us have learned how to keep our heart closed in a world that would trample all over us if we let it. Being open hearted today seems to require tremendous courage. It is a courage which comes only when we realise that no one can hurt us, no matter what they say or do. They may hurt our body, but if we have realised we are spirit, nothing outside can touch us, if we so decide. Little by little, practice opening your heart to those you think have hurt you. Realise it wasnt them that hurt you, it was yourself. And it taught you not to trust and you closed your heart. A closed heart is in need of opening. And when you do, you will have begun to heal yourself. "

REFLECTION

Stripping herself of the distinction between Right and Wrong,
She stared at her Bare Body in the Mirror before Her.
Candlelight illuminated Her Face.
There were no scars, no bruises and for that Moment she thought herself Immortal.

There was something different about that Night.
The Seeds of Curiosity and Intrigue had been Planted,
Allowing her to Cultivate Life thru their Direct Experience.
Some Flowers would Bloom, others would Die
and Both brought her Pain and Pleasure.

She knew better than to ignore Intuition,
But she had danced with the Devil and made Love in the Dark.

By the time Light peered its head thru the upstairs window,
Her cards were Laying on the Table, No Aces left up Her Sleeve.

She knew their Exchange was only Temporary,
So she Breathed Him in Deep,
creating a Reserve for use upon His Departure.

She Stared Intensely at Her Reflection,
Neither blinking, Raw Unspoken Truth.
Words need not be said, when a Gaze explains what one Innately Senses.
But her Intoxication gave Her Courage
And for that Moment, There was Nothing she Feared.

She was Looking at Freedom,
Having Long been Present Within Her Being,
Yet Somehow having Rested Its Head For Longer than Intended.
This Beauty that attracted her, would be the same that would push her away.
And this she Knew.

The Interplay of Light and Dark bouncing off the Glass Fascinated Her,
Piercing her Heart and Stinging her Soul in Sweet Surrender.
She Reached out, wanting to Grasp the Silver Glimmer that was Birthed from their Merging,
But she quickly Realized it was Not to be Clenched,
as she Witnessed Blood Slowly Seeping from her Fingers.

Her Focus Slowly Rose from her Red Hand,
Meeting His Eyes Once More.
And She Smiled.
Eyes of Love Saying “Thank You”
For that was All She had to Give.

Love & Truth

I'd like to share with all of you the tattoo I got today. This was symbolic of much of the growth and realizations I’ve experienced this past year. The poem below also explains an aspect of its representation for me. The artist who did it, Junk Roxxx, had a very gentle touch and I told him the needle felt so good, like "an angel nibbling me". He said that I was “the most animated person he had ever met”, which was a such a sweet compliment and funny considering everyone says I am like a fairy. ;)
The process was quick, about 15 minutes, and I listened to "Submerge: Til We Become the Sun" and "Pretty Wings" by Maxwell. It was a beautiful experience. Sitting in lotus my heart was very happy and my eyes teared up in gratitude. I am so thankful for those I've been blessed to encounter on my journey this lifetime and have been influential in the process.
Ok, ok ... Now that I set the scene, here's the poem..... ;)


I walk 3 steps forward.
You take 2 and 1 back.
After awhile I'm walking ahead and can't really turn back.
For if I grab your hand and pull you along,
you'll never be able to sing your own songs.
And although I'd love to continue and walk by your side,
Distinct intentions create separate paths that neither can deny.
So one of our gifts we will gently lay to rest,
To preserve the core essence of what we have left.
An essence so pure, preserved in spiritual planes.
Physical manifestation hindered by emotional aims.
I don't want you to change
If freedom is what you claim.
No more need to explain
No need to be ashamed.
And although feelings make me unable to remain
These moments may be few or extended longer the same.
For in my heart, our connection is still maintained.
What we've built is so strong, no words suffice as name.
I still Love you the same.
We are One... still the same.
So I'll proceed on my path and bow my head to you,
Honoring our bond still intact, only present in rare few.
Though the opposite direction I bravely do choose,
I'll never refute this Love and Undeniable Truth.
And for that reason,
Imprinted on me,
The symbol of all we came to be.
And always were and always will.
We are Love and Truth
United Still.

Let Me

Hello Beautiful Souls,

If you are receiving this, it is because you are one of the special people with whom I would like to share my poetry with. I just wrote this piece in the last hour, so it is fresh with my energy right now. As you may know, its a full moon tonight which brings out the rawness in me and of course the Love which oozes out of me and all my writings ;) Thank you for sharing my heart and being a source of inspiration.
Love, Mar Y Sol


Let me Write

Let me write for those who make music and rhymes
and carry passion in their eyes.
For those whose lips can express their heart
and send messages miles apart.

Let me Write

my name across your heart
your soul, let you lose control
let pleasures unfold
let your heart I mold
experience moments untold.
Witness what’s possible
when your bed’s no longer cold.

Let me Write

and teach you how to feel
to believe in the unreal
to allow you to breath deeply
when my feelings I reveal.

Let me Express

because we all just want some love and affection.
Time together, giving you my sole attention
and need I mention
how we’ll relax and unwind
with legs intertwined,
searching deeper for treasures
that few dare to find.

Let me Bare

Bare my body, anticipating the first time we’ll undress
Bare my heart, instant comfort makes it feel safe to express
Bare my mind, for intentions have no life if suppressed
Bare my soul, if you will listen to desires I confess.

Let me Love

Nothing less than what I always dreamed
Nothing more than it always seemed.
Finding in the final scenes,
Eternal lovers are few and far between.

Let me Love

because I’ve been set free
allowing me to clearly see
what I’ve wanted all along for me.
Now this is the only Truth set free,
that possibilities are real and infinitely me.

Dance with a Poet

As he writes his spirit glides across the paper leaving his imprint on her heart and mind
He speaks from a place she has not visited yet familiar nonetheless
His words dance with her, eliminating the need for a formal introduction
Ordinary questions unnecessary for his essence touched her being centuries ago.

She sits in her stillness unsure as to how or why.
Her ability to feel sometimes frightening her still.
Witnessing pain exploding through pixels and speakers, too intense to be contained.
So she reaches out.
Taking her curiosity and intrigue by the reigns
Aware of her ability to ease the pain
She wants to Love his hurt away, that sneaks from his eyes behind smiles
and finds its home at his side when all are asleep.
She wants Him to know,
There are others like Him. He is not alone.
God embodies many, few ready to give Him voice.
Not willing to accept their Godliness and sit upon their throne.

He carries Him inside, words writing themselves manifested from places never seen, rather felt by these often hidden Chosen Few.
Spirit enters, Heart pumping, pushing blood through veins, into hands which profess Undeniable Truth.
Living proof the body is only what we see.
You are Alive my friend. You are Alive.

Breathing deeply, God enters her, this mission to Love overwhelming for a soul trapped in a limited body, bound by time and space.
She sends her spirit to kiss his face in his sleep, caress his forehead, and somehow ease the weight carried by the Ones still left standing.

It is the Angels with callings others are unable to comprehend.
Embarking on a path, often chosen not, rather suddenly given to them.
She sees and feels him deeply, willingly be his friend and muse.
And so she gives her heart permission to share this sweet juice.
Nectar of Life
Ever-nourishing
More than enough Proof.

His Name

* This one just came out today. It flowed so effortlessly, it almost wrote itself.

His Name

From the first day I picked up my pen, 

He was the source of my inspiration for these words

Words that could not express that feeling, 

That feeling you feel when it doesn’t seem real 

When one day you’re in ecstasy and the next day He messes with me
with those words, or lack thereof.
And I try, I try so hard to stay out of my mind
and see Him with eyes clear from fear, or uncertainty, or doubt, 

And sustain a young woman whole and complete
whether She feels His affection or stays without.
For the night, and another, and another

Declining other invites because Her soul knows what’s real,

From the first instant She could feel

and gave Him His Name in Her book of Few.
So Few had ever touched Her the way that He had,

Looking with eyes not of scared of Her Light,

But fearful of His own Name so they remain the Same,

With one hand in Her pocket, and the other extended in vain.

Sometimes He would show His face
and it looked so familiar when He almost arrived 

So close I could see the way his shoulders relaxed
when He stopped trying so hard.
Just Stop, For one second and see what’s in front of you
before you keep walking,
before I start walking. 

Away.

Another day His face would change, emotions would fade
and I would give Him another Name.
But again, it was still the Same.
And I never cared how many books would tell me
Men Love Bitches or He’s Just not That into You

I just always kept it real, expressing my heart with all pride aside,
I shared what was always inside, 

Because I knew in the depths of my Soul
He loved me just as much 

So much that it scared Him, and Him, and Him too
And sometimes he’d just watch my tears or listen to my fears,
like a statue so cold and unmoved.
Oh how he hid his emotion so well, I wondered where it went.
But I saw it all and I watched as well, as he played his role so well.
Because, You know...
it’s just so much easier when you don’t respond when they call you,

By Your Name….. 

Sometimes I feel like He forgets my Name,
but when I look in his eyes, its still the Same
Won’t He Feed me some consistency?
SHOW me that you hear me, SHOW me that you’re Here with Me
and that the man I see has the same identity that I knew from Day One
SHOW me and TELL me that your still someone
Someone I know so well.

Should I remind Him of His name?
Or should I just walk away?
Yes, maybe I’ll just walk away today and know I still remain
and that I didn’t forget my Name.
Because at the end of the day, We’re one in the same.
And Baby I don’t Need You at all.
Cause you’ll still be here, whether I ever see you again at all.
Cause I had you even before you uttered my Name at all
Cause I had you inside of me before you knew what even hit you at all.
I had you inside of me. I had you inside of me.
Because your Name is LOVE. Your Name is LOVE
And for Now, I’m still right Here, and you have nothing to be fearful of.

In My Quiet Solitude...

(*It had been awhile since I took the time to listen to her express herself... so here we go...)

In my quiet solitude, I bask in the infinite greatness that is I.

Thru the sun ray's energy, he pierces my skin,
finding a place in my heart and I invite him Home.

It's the Sweetest Submission,
even when I'm alone.
For I know he's been Here,
because the pages are worn.

Traveling thru unfamiliar territories, Navigated by few before,
The Unknown finds his place by my side,
be it for one day, one year, one lifetime or more.

And while still in my wholeness, I observe myself in him, and him in I.
His words become mine, his essence inside,
from his skin against mine, to the Love in his eyes.

It is through this Love that we always progress,
As we share, accept, and simply reflect.
With new realizations, perceived limitations transgressed,
'Til we speak from our souls, now Free to express.

Gazing at the stars, who've written all these lines,
Savoring the moments in this life so perfectly planned.
Now I'll humbly remind, Should we meet again another time,
may I again have the pleasure of simply holding his hand.

Goddess of Light

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Allow me to enchant you with the sweetness of my breasts
Succumbing to your deep-rooted desires, how long you have suppressed

A call of desperation, penetrating acts of sublimation,
one moment ignored, one moment explored, won't you cease the show today

Because I can see right through your mask
Starry Eyes telling stories of constellations seeking.
Heart desires something more close within its grasp
And every word left unspoken leads to my presence more fleeting

How can one resist my essence, powerful, raw and pure?
Enticing you beyond comprehension, rather hesitation is more secure

I can see you running fast with fury, naturally launching into flight
Of course you'll never understand
For you are a mere man,
Witnessing a formless goddess, here well within your sight

So fight your good fight,
Tell your proud stories
And walk on by
Don't wonder why.

Goddess lies alone tonight.

No One Other Than Me

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I held, and as I clutched the intoxication of desire unmet,
my own fingers interwined with one another
spoke words of solitary result, though not with regret

I tasted, the bittersweet fruit,
not ready to be picked yet able to detach,
too ripe and sweet to not make me long for more

So I explored, through fields of curiousity and trenches of doubt,
rising high in extasy, then falling low beneath my own feet,
only left with moving ground

Still I stand,
wondering if there's even a master plan.
Seeking to find the way back to my home in the sky, in the sea,
on the moon, where I'd rather be.

Through uncharted territory always convinced my way is so sure,
always convinced but still insecure,
I'll admit those days when my flowers not in bloom,
those days when I fell I stepped out too soon

For who must I be?
No one other than me.
Strip me of my beauty, my intriguing stare,
the way it feels there, when I knowingly dare

And what would be left? who would be left?
Then I wouldn't even care who was even there,
no it'd be all just dream, nothing more than what it seems.

Open Heart

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A moment in time can birth the purest love,
A moment of confirmation there is nothing to be fearful of.
For I have found what I thought was once impossibility,
Unconditional Acceptance, Understanding, and True Humility.

It is with this that we're growing
and thru you I am knowing
That we can infinitely exist
when one vision still persists.

No boundaries are written, no demands to be,
Brother, sister, friend, lover,
You are everything and nothing to me.
My teacher, my muse, you are beloved inspiration like no other.

And with the meeting of our eyes,
I see all the reasons why,
We have met here on this journey,
To uphold each other when we believe our stories.

As we look into stars
and imagine an entire world as bright as ours,
There's no doubt we can transcend,
For there's nothing to pretend, there is nothing left to mend.

Because today I am so open.
My heart overflows with love and affection for the beauty of love and truth.
My body responds with smiles and laughter as it exudes eternal youth.
By soul travels free in time and space, and of this I need no proof.

So I will savor every moment with those I love without question,
As we honor our unions, perfectly synchronized beyond comprehension
Though change is constant, the truth remains.
Though change is constant, we are all the same.

I love you my friend, for you and I are one.
I love you ‘til there’s no end, this moment’s just begun.

I AM (AWARENESS for you)

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I AM (AWARENESS for you)

Your everything and nothing
Your reminder its okay,
The energy that pulls you back,
When you feel you've gone astray

The light reflecting from the sun and piercing through your eyes,
The wind that blows into your face, when you run out of reasons why
What you've always wanted, but feared when you received
Want you never wanted, Impossible to conceive.

The sand that kisses your feet and wraps around your toes
The voice inside of you, speaking softly for you to Know
The moonlight reflecting on the midnight ocean, cleansing your "right and wrongs"
The sound your fingers make when you play another song

Your everything and nothing,
If you'll take me Here today
So much to be seen and felt
So much that's in the way

The reflection of You,
Higher Self of You
What's Here, What's True?
What's Left of You?

Waiting to be seen,
Waiting in between
I am Here, I am You
I am Awareness for You.

ONE

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Looking down from balconys edge,
She spotted Salvation embodied in human form,
Bring me down to your ground,
Hold me in your center, as if I was never born.

As His hair flowed in the wind,
she longed for the energy of her Warrior of Light,
Its been grand in the clouds, but I feel now its time,
Lets go back to that night, when our meeting was right.

Then he replied, he would love to stay and try,
but his Purpose was There and he was just passing by.
So he gave her a sword to protect against Lies
and a staff to remind her, to stand tall and guide

And she smiled and she cried for she always knew why,
A beautiful dream, a Love unseen
And she knew in her heart,
another lifetime apart....

STILL STANDING HERE (GOODBYE)

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Moving through time,
days to nights but I'm not blind
Still standing here,
New things I find
Emerging
Still turning
Lives converging
Into you, falling into you
Over and out, seeing through you.

Still standing here,
Look out, you're not there,
Always knew you cared,
All these lifetimes never fair.

He's Crying like a child,
still trying all the while
While I'm dying through my smile.
When his heart no longer dials.

Still standing Here
Falling over the edge,
Let go of the past
when I Let go of my grasp,
Final breath as one,
Then separate I become.

Flatline_______________
Now it's my time,
Got no time
To wait until you feel
Its time

Still standing Here,
But it's just me, myself, and I,
My way to break the cry,
That way you can't deny.
Maybe You can see me....
Still standing here,
But I already said Goodbye,
You already said Goodbye.

Unsaid

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Rest your head on my heart, a moment in time stops
and sound becomes so clear,
Rising chest from breaths of intense words unsaid, held dear
Tracing the lines of your face, leading to a place no one knows
Follow the path to my heart, to a home where you can go.
No judgment, no trying, accepting all, nothing denying
I can see all of you, because I can feel all of you, just like it was yesterday
And Now You can see me in You, my Beautiful friend, I’ll never go away
Colored Sunlight reflecting on the window, greeting us good day,
Counting water drops kissing you in a simple yet amazing way.
Clouds flying high telling stories of fantasy
Synchronized breaths, energy telling me we’ve been he re previously.
Tell me your story, bare me your soul,
crazy beautiful mind, but you’re in control
Discovering depths, nothing must be understood
No answers are necessary, only feeling what is good.
Hold my open heart and feel it loving true,
Unconditional and everlasting love for the Being I call You.